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My way into Findom

I am a Finsub. My Superior is Goddess Destiny. I am thankful that I am permitted to write that blog and that I am allowed to write my thoughts down. In this post I want to tell my story, how I become a finsub and how I ended as slave of my Goddess.

I was a Finsub before I knew that Finsubs exist. My first girlfriend let me pay everything for her, I was her taxi driver, because I had already a driving lisence and she not. I drove her whenever she needed me, later when she also had her lisence she left me, for a real man. I haven't realised at that time, that I am not a real man, that I am a beta male. Later when I compared my dick to other dicks I realised more and more that it will be hard for me to find a girl and I went more and more often to professional dominatrixes. I have done that for years, I went there, paid the amount the Domme charged, get what I wanted (satisfaction) and went home. After some years I realised that that is not what I am searching for, because I am not really dominated by that Dominatrixes, I paid them and they did what I wanted. But I had no idea that Findom exist at that time. So I stopped to go to Dominatrixes and tried to build a family. I found a lady, get married and had a good life. But I took the first lady that was willing to start a relationship with me, I was never in love with that lady. I really like her, I still like my wife, I like to talk to here, I like to go out with her, I love the family I build with her, but I can't say that I really love her and our sex life is so boring, I can't describe that. Of course that's not the fault of my wife, its all my fault, because I can never please a woman with my small dick. With the time my wish to become a slave came back. But I don't wanted to go to Dominatrixes any more, and one day I landed on Twitter and found out about the Findom Hashtag. That happened about 3 years ago, it still needed 3 years before I found my Goddess, but in that 3 years I realised more and more that Findom is that, what I have ever searched for. It's not about my satisfaction, it's all about the Goddess, and that's what I like so much about it, it's real submissiveness not paying for geting satisfaction. I am forbidden to masturbate, I am not finding sexual satisfaction in that setting. And that's what I love about it. It's really a power exchange. I have no power in that setting, all the power is with my Goddess. She is in charge.

That's why I am into Findom, that's why I am a proud slave of Goddess Destiny!

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